Dwayne Raymond Rayner

1980 - 2004
LocationGreat Yarmouth
Age23 years
Cause of DeathOverdose
Date of Birth09/08/1980
Date of Death04/07/2004
Visitors1,468 since 14/01/2009
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My eldest brother Dwayne Rayner passed away when he was just 23 years old, his life was a good one until my mum passed away, he was the eldest and understood what was going on and it hit him the hardest. he then began a long road of addiction and pain. he was a loveing brother and we will always miss him, he was thoughtful and kind and always just wanted his family around him we all wish we could have done more to keep him from the road he chose but once our beloved mum died he chose his path of self distruction and no matter what anyone did, he could not be helped. we miss u everyday dwayne the 19 years i spent with u were so precious, i will always treasure the little dragon u gave me as a goodluck charm.you ment the world to me, i only wish we had more time. miss you forever, look after mum. until the day we meet again. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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My little eyes
are watching
All you say and do
And when I grow up
big and tall
I want to be like you.

My little ears
are listening
To everything you say
I am learning how
to grow up
To be like you
someday.

So be careful how
you teach me
To be the person
that you are.
You’re a knight in
shining armor
You’re my brightest
shining star.

love you so much D, miss you even more, wish u met Tegan xxxx

Natalie Engstrom (Sister)

Sunday morning

My eyes filled up with tears as I heard the news
It never occurred to me, how much I could lose
I find myself wishing that it wasn't real
Every time I think about it, pain is all I can feel
Tears fall from my eyes, I can barely see
But my heart tells me that he'll always be with me
I’m glad he feels no pain now-he lives in a perfect land
I can still feel the soft touch on my shoulder of his loving hand
I lie in bed and cry at night
And I don’t feel any better in the morning light
And I will love and miss him forever
Until the day we are again together.
Together in that perfect place above,
Filled with caring, sharing and love
But until that day comes- I will wipe my tears away.
And hopefully see him again someday

Natalie Engstrom (Sister)

October 22, 2011

Miss you so much bro xxx

We think of you in silence
We always speak your name
We have so many memories
And your picture in a frame
We do not need a special day to bring you to our minds
Since days we do not think of you are impossible to find
We think of you when we play but that is nothing new
We think of you with love today
We are always with you
You are now our guardian angel watching us from your place of rest
Heaven must be a beautiful place
For God only takes the best
God please look after Dwayne
Don’t let him walk alone
After all, this is his first time away from home
Until we meet again

Natalie Engstrom (Sister)

October 22, 2011

my bestest brother 7 years :(

There is so much I wish to say
I think about you every day
I miss your laugh
I miss your smile
Neither lost nor forgotten...
I imagine them often

It just doesn’t seem real that you’re not around
I still look for you when I’m in town…
I’ll never forget on the 4th of July...
As I sat on the curb, tears filled my eyes….
I found myself looking for you…..
Until I realized what was true...

I will never again see your wave and your smile...
We won’t stand on the street and visit for a while…
No “how you doing Sis” with a big hug to follow….
No “what are you doing tonight” or “I’ll see ya tomorrow”…
All of these things, I cherish so dearly …
In my heart, I remember so clearly…

To make things worse…
Dad finally told me.
My birthday surprise he’d been withholding….
To pick me up and head to the beach…
A day with my “Dad” my little bro and me.
Instead….. on my birthday
I had just said good bye.
At your funeral, which was one day prior.

I still talk to you ...
I know you can hear me…
Today I spoke of you and before I finished my sentence….
I could feel your presence...
Then .. a coincidence, or was it a sign?
The song that reminds me of you began to play…
As If you knew I was thinking of you this day...
I smiled.. feeling you were there with me …
Again... I sat remembering…
Tears filled my eyes as I listened to the song.
But this time I accepted that you are gone.

Natalie Engstrom (Sister)

July 3, 2011

For my big brother xxx

I thought of you today, but that is nothing new. I thought about you yesterday and days before that too. I think of you in silence, I often speak your name. All I have is memories and a picture in a frame. Your memory is a keepsake in which I'll never part. God has you in his keeping, I have you in my heart, miss you so much xxx

Natalie Engstrom (Sister)

March 12, 2011

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i just miss you Dwayne Raymond Rayner. it kills me and all of us that ur not with us,dad may not pay in this life for what hes done but im certain he will pay in the next life, ill never forgive him not in this one or the next, hope mum has u safely tucked under her arms with lots of cuddle's where you belong, lots of love ur little sister, Natalie xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Natalie Engstrom (Sister)

October 5, 2010

someday

when you lose someone it can be hard to take
the pain that you feel when your heart has to break
the memories you keep are all in your mind
as you search your soul for more to find
the way their skin felt the smell of their hair
as you keep thinking over and shedding a tear
the years may pass, memories fade to grey
but your getting no younger you'll see them someday
unconditional love is never forgotten
look deep in your heart it is there at the bottom
alone in the dark sometimes in fear
voices from loved ones your hoping to hear
more years pass, they soon fly by
but your always looked upon from those in the sky
surrounded by clouds and pure white doves
they listen and watch sending you love
just remember one thing as you sit and you pray
they will be there to greet you, you will see them someday.

Natalie Engstrom (Sister)

September 26, 2010

miss you

God saw u getting tired and a cure was not to be. So he put his arms around u and whispered "come with me" With tearful eyes i watched u, and saw u pass away. Although i loved u dearly, i could not make u stay. A golden heart stopped beating, hard working hands at rest. God broke my heart to prove to me, he only takes the best xxx

Natalie Engstrom (Sister)

July 8, 2010

,miss you D xxxxxxx

Dear Brother,
I miss you much,
Since you've been away,
I don't laugh anymore,
I stand alone as I play,
I could tell you all,
Now I'm stuck in a bind,
You used to help me out as I got left behind,
This world is spinning fast,
Too fast for you and me,
I'm blinded by the signals I begin to see,
Help me out,
Please come back,
I miss you much and that's a fact,
I will always love you for the wisdom you have shared,
As if you were like a father,
You expressed so much love and care.

Natalie Engstrom (Sister)

May 27, 2010

MISS YOU SO MUCH D xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Do not stand at my grave and weep
I am not there, I do not sleep
I am a 1,000 winds that blow
I am the diamond glints on snow
I am the sun on ripened grain
I am the gentle autumn rain
When you awaken in the morning's hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled light
I am the soft star that shines at night
Do not stand at my grave and cry
I am not there; I did not die.

Natalie Engstrom (Sister)

April 24, 2010
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